You can choose whether to be depress or not. But is adviceable to stop that feeling of hatred for yourself, feeling of insatisfation with life. Focus more on a positive thinking, so that your mind will gradually begin to rearrange. Note that is a gradual process, even if you are not satisfy with your experience so far in life, don’t give up, don’t be depressed. Depression is usually out of been frustrated in life, not satisfy with life, mental frustration and not being able to have direction in handle specific issues that is overbearing. Please depression is not of God is satanic and sometimes is human manufactured; You worry yourself so much, that you get comfussed, depressed and surpressed. Please there is a way out. One of which is the word of God, which will help position your mindset. Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that is the word of God. For I have not giving you the spirit of fear but of love, of power and of sound mind. I can do all things through God which striengthneth me. Have these words of God in your memory. Speak to that depression to get out of you. But you need to recognise Jesus as your personal Lord and saviour, for the word to be active in your life. Thank all.